Monday, April 25, 2011

Just Thoughts


- It is more than a year now since I stopped blogging for many reasons which was keeping me from doing so. But now, I feel that I need to do so again. so this post will be just about the conflicted and racing thoughts in my my mind and feelings within me.

- The main Purpose of creating this blog was writing about my inner thoughts. sometimes it was about experiences which I live, current events, political views or just Personal feelings.

when I created this blog, having comments from others or having followers whom I might lose now due to the long period of absence, wasn't a thing which I imagine. Although I was so happy when I had followers andwas getting comments from them.

- Lately, My mind is spinning the wheels, as they said, for many reasons and I can't keep it with the speed of how my mind works.

- Sarah is so sick and I'm so afraid and worried about her and feel I can do nothing for her which makes me feel more sad and helpless I just have my prayers for her to get better soon.

- I'm on the steps of a new start on my Career Path and I hope that I'm doing well and that it'll be a good start and a strong one as I really love the Prospected and see that it'll be a great Career path.

- I knew a new friend and I really mean it when I say a friend although it is only few days since we firstly met but I find her an amiable person and I admire her way of thinking and opinions and I hope that she liked me too and that it'll be a strong friendship between both of us.

- When I renamed the Blog to be "In a Journey of Self search" I really meant it as I feel now that way. I'm searching about myself. I'm trying to do everything from the Prospect that I do it for my own self.

- I'm deeply convinced that we are the most important persons in our lives and that if we did our best and pampered ourselves it'll have the best impact on all the people in our lives as we will be good enough for them when we are good for ourselves and I'm trying to apply this on myself.

- It was so great to feel that I'm still good looking. when I hear that the last few days from many people around me, it gave me the charge to take more care of myself and to make more changes in my style and get back to the person whom I'm sued to be.

- I'm on diet. I always failed in committing to a diet becuase I get bored quickly. But this time, the feeling of making something for my self to be good looking and healthy makes me feel so good.

This is the third week on diet and still on each week I'm afraid by the moment of truth when I face the scale and always I feel that I made many mistakes during the week and that I'll discover that I didn't lose weight and that I'll stop dieting.

- This week was the hardest week on diet becuase of the circumstances surrounding me and becuase of the state of my mind and how madly it works. I felt that I crave for Chocolate and for eating even when I wasn't hungry. The struggle against me was strong and today is Easter and I'll make the biggest mistake and eat "Ringa" I love it and I can't stop myself. By the end it is one day in the year.

- I need a vacation like how I'd love it in a secluded place with the Sea and the Serenity of Nature. I hope we will do so this year but for the time being I need any change just to go out in the streets, walk, meet people, talk and socilaize. Sarah, get well soon to do any thing.